studying more

Well, as I told you, I'm on holiday now. I still keep addressing to an immaginary reader, and I'm really starting to think that my reader is an imaginary one...in fact, wasn't it so, probably I would gather more comments than I actually do. So, I stopped and thought: does anybody really read this that I'm writing? And, if nobody does, why do I keep writing? Is it a kind of selfreflection on my...uh...life? Is this thought too deep? Am I doing this for my English? Am I doing this for myself? Am I doing this for any reason at all? And WHAT is exactly this that I'm doing? Do you feel dizzy now? Don't tell me about it...Well, ok, I don't have any answer...as Eugenio Montale said: "non chiederci la parola che squadri da ogni lato l'animo nostro informe....etc etc... Codesto solo oggi possimo dirti, ciò che non siamo, ciò che non vogliamo". Ok, right, I know he was talking about poets and I'm not a poet at all...I'm not trying to put myself as a poet...I'm just trying out an analogy here, ok?

Anyways, does this really matter?

Let's talk of something else...what? My course!! Did I mention it? I'm taking a great course...why? Well, first of all because my curriculum doesn't have any worthy extrascholatic activity, and since I'm trying to make it look richer than it does, then I decided to include this course into my life. And it was a great decision! It's not easy to wake up early and spend 4 hours in a classroom, but I'm actually learning how to use games and understand the dynamic of a group. This will be incredibly helpful in my lessons (at least I hope) because:

1. I will include more games and practice activities

2. I'm learning so much about the roles of students and teachers, and the psychology behind their behaviour, that I'm really hoping to be a better teacher next semester.

I think the psychologic side of the coin is being particularly enlightening because I am such an emotional person, and I tend to take everything personally. For example, when a student misses a presentation and doesn't say anything, I think this is a lack of respect to me, so I get pretty mad at the student...now I'm learning that being emotional is not the case in the classroom...you have to be rational first of all, think of what you are going to say, the facial expression you are going to take, etc.

Ok, in short: I'm trying to become a better teacher, and this is something that is making me feel happy! It's good to try to improve ourselves, isn't it? Well, this is what I'm planning to do throughout my whole life...